When I was born, I had the "lazy eye." My left eye was droopy and needed to be operated on in order to look like the right one. This picture was taken after that surgery. The surgery was a success, except for the fact that they took a little too much and now my eye doesn't quite shut all the way. Whenever I sleep, one eyes stays a little bit open. It freaked my wife out when we first got married. But she has learned over time that as long as she can still hear me snoring, I'm OK.
I ran across this picture today in the process of backing up some old photo files and it got me to to thinking about how many times over the years I have been self conscious about that eye. Whenever I would pray in public, I would always wonder if people were looking and wondering why I was praying with one eye open. Whenever I was a Youth Pastor, I always seemed to think that it was necessary to explain to the youth why my eye was messed up.
After a while I came to realize that the only people who really noticed it were the people that I told about it. I had been having this huge complex over something that other people really never even thought about. I had been handicapping myself with the wrong idea of how people saw me. That "lazy eye" had really never handicapped my ability to see others because I can see almost perfect even without glasses. But that lazy eye had handicapped how I saw myself.
Today ask the heavenly Father to help you understand who you are in Him and find confidence over any false perceptions that may hinder your ability to minister to others. Stop letting your "lazy eye" handicap how you see yourself or others.
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